The following original poetry is written by Millah Amber Maynario. These poems and more can found at her homepage. [Copyright – 2001 – M.A.M.] Millah appreciates all feedback, and you can write all your comments in the guestbook and they will be forwarded to her.
1. WEAK
Your cruel words
Stab me like
A thousand little kitchen knives
They make me sad
And rip me apart
But you know what
It's you that's weak
All your dragging down
Well it pulls me up
It's damn pulling me up
It's making me stronger
It makes me so damn strong
Damn stronger than you
You slander my name
But you don't even know me
What does that say about you?
You think I'm weak,
But it's you that's weak
All your dragging down
Well it pulls me up
It's damn pulling me up
It's making me stronger
It makes me so damn strong
Damn stronger than you
I'm not mad
It just makes me sad
Your weakness
Reminds me
Of weak tea
It makes me sad
To picture you hiding in the shadows
Of your damn smart words
Words that mean nothing
In this world of weakness
2. I LOVE YOU (Song For The Boy Of The 12th)
I love you
But I hate you more
I love you
It makes me so sick to admit
That I love you
I loved you for all the right reasons
But you ripped me up for all the wrong decisions
I gave you my heart
Served on a silver platter
You took it and played with it
You screwed me over
And once done, left me shattered
Alone, mourning the space you left
It makes me think of that song and wonder
"What becomes of the broken hearted?"
Well, I guess I know well now
They lie hopelessly in bleeding love
They die breathlessly in drowning love
But still I love you
And still you play with my emotions
You screw with my heart
You leave me wanting more
But feeling like last week's dinner
I hate myself for loving you the way I do
But what can I do?
I love you
It makes me sick
But what can I do?
I'm so damn in love with you
Don't break me
Please don't
I'm already broken
I was picking up the pieces
When you came and ripped them from my bleeding hands
And dispersed the shattered pieces of my heart
Back onto the cold cement floor
Still I love you
I love you
But I hate you more
I love you
It makes me so sick to admit
That I love you
Don't break me
You know
I'm so damn in love with you
I love you
But I hate you more
I love you
It makes me so sick (and sad) to admit
That I'm so damn in love with you
3. ONLY HUMAN (DON'T BREAK ME DOWN)
Don't break me down
I'm only human
I am not above hurt
I am not above loneliness
Don't break me down
To make you look good
Don't break me down
To impress the 'worthy'
Am I so damn worthless
That you don't find the need
To impress me?
Please don't break me down
I am only human
You treat me well
When we are alone
Then you start breaking me down
When we are not alone
If that's what you call friendship
Then I'd rather be friendless
And alone
Don't break me down
To make you look good
Don't break me down
To impress the 'worthy'
Am I so damn worthless
That you don't find the need
To impress me?
Please don't break me down
I am only human
I am only human
Who feels
Who is
You know
I'd like to rip you apart
And show you what it's like to be low
What it's like to be unwanted
And worthless
And alone
But then I remember
You are only human
You are not above hurt
You are not above sorrow
And you are not above loneliness.
You are only human
We are only human.
4. STUPID PEOPLE)
Stupid people
Come over here and let me slap you down
I thought I was a people person
But maybe I was wrong
I can't stand another day
With all you stupid people
You stupid people
Get down from your high horses
And come over here
And let me slap you down
I wish you could see what matters
But you don't
You stupid people
I love, but you just make me so angry
So angry, I could slap you down any moment now
You stupid people
Get down from your high horses
And come over here
And let me slap you down
Stupid people
High on your horses,
High on your throne,
Living in your dream land
Candy bubbles of artificial flavours
Artificial lives
Artificial existences
Come on you stupid people
Let me slap you down
What makes you 'better' than me?
What makes you more 'worthy'?
I don't know
You tell me
You stupid, stupid people
Tell me what's important
In this life
Of artificial existence
You stupid people
Get off your high horses
Get down from your thrones
Leave your artificial existences
Shut your shallow mouths
And come over here
Throw down your gold crowns
Stupid people
And let me slap you down
Back to reality.
5. YOU BLOW ME AWAY BABY (SMILE) – [Ode to 12th W.E]
Every time I see you
You blow me away baby
In my mind, I make up
All these funny little things to say to you
But when I finally see you
All my words fall away
And I can't think of a thing to say
All I can do is smile
Smile uncontrollably in your presence
You blow me away baby
Yesterday I decided to tell you about my new horse
But when I saw you today
The depth of your eyes blew me away
I couldn't speak
You left me a mute
Mesmerised
Whenever Fridays approach
I kill myself thinking
About how I can't wait til Monday to see you again
It felt like an eternity
Slowly, but surely the day came
A whole new week came
And the speechless cycle began again.
You blow me away, baby
Every time I see you
It's like a dream
Oh I can't speak
And I can't think
All I can do is smile
All I can do is smile for you baby
In my mind
I make up all these little conversations we'll have
But they never come, because I can't find the sense
To speak
To think
To break free from your mesmerising eyes
If I don't seem to talk
Don't feel bad
I just wish I could find the words
To tell you all the things I want to
But I can't
Because you drive me crazy
Because baby, you blow me away
You blow me away, baby
Every moment I see your silhouette
It's like walking on Heaven's clouds
Oh I can't speak, I can't speak
Oh I can't think, I can't think
All I can do is smile
All I can do is smile
All I can do is smile for you baby
Because, baby, you blow me away.
6. SOMEBODY ELSE'S BABY
Seeing you
Reminds me of the specialness of people
Though we have never met
Let alone spoke
You have brought back out
The live lovin' in me
Though I am yet to hear your voice
I see a spark in your eyes
It haunts me day by day
Wondering who you are
What you are to become
I'm dying to love you
But you're
Somebody else's baby
I can't go chasin'
Somebody else's baby
I can't go lovin'
Somebody else's baby
Even if it's you
I'm dying to talk to you
But I don't want to be
The other girl
The girl who flirts
The girl who rips couples apart
But I can't help the way I feel
I can't help lovin'
Somebody else's baby
I can't go on chasin'
Somebody else's baby
I can't go on lovin'
Somebody else's baby
Somebody else's baby like you
Maybe I'll wait forever
Waiting for you
Maybe I'll love forever
Lovin' somebody's else's baby
Somebody like you
7. Loser (Ode To High School Blues)
What have I ever done to you?
I wish I could show you
How your words hurt me
Your tongue is killing me softly
Killing me slowly
I'm a loser
Don't hold it against me
Well I'd rather be a loser anyday
Then be an asshole like you
You say I don't have any friends
I think I would rather be alone
Then have friends like you
I know it's true
But why do you have to point it out?
Having a million friends will not make me a better person
Nor does it make you one.
I'm a loser
Don't hold it against me
I'd rather be a loser anyday
Then be 'cool' like you.
You laugh at my shoes
And pull my hair
Show me a little respect
I'm proud to be who I am
I'm an individual
Lost in a crowd of factory clones like you
You all wear your expensive brands
You all listen to the likes of Korn and Limp Biskit
Not that they're bad, they're just not me
Don't hold it against me
I'm just a loser
I'm just being me
Don't hold it against me
I'm just a loser
I'm just being honest
Don't trash me for it
I'm just being honest
I'm just me
I'm just a loser.
